Awkward

Overheard in the car on the way home from dropping Bubba off at school "Mama, I want a friend." Not the first time I have heard this from her in the past couple weeks.

I think she has been seeing Bubba with his friends at school, and we have had one of them over after school a few times (the girl friend!!) and she feels left out or she realizes that there is more to life than just family, school and gym class. I remember when Bubba was her age and how awkward it was for me to reach out to other parents to get the kids together. How do I do it, what do I say, do I really want TWO kids running around my house? What are the rules? Selfish I know, but still.

On the other hand, I know from experience that its really nice to have a second kid running around, they keep the first one busy. But, if I had someone over, it would force me to clean up the house. That means work for me. See how easy it is for me to talk myself out of it!

How hard would it be to invite someone to McDonald's after gym class? Or to leave a note for one of the moms at pre-school? I guess I am afraid of rejection. I am also afraid of not having something to talk to the parent about. I am not so good at conversation. Really, I'm not. I'm more of a watcher than a talker.

So, I am going to buy her some friends! I am going to take cookies or cupcakes to gym class for her birthday - which is tomorrow (good suggestion by My Honey) - since I suck and can't take anything to pre-school tomorrow because I work. (It just occurred to me that I could send something to pre-school too. DUH.)

In other news, I have fallen off the workout wagon HARD. Actually, I guess that would be soft. I am all soft and need to get back on it. I went on Saturday and did a really whimpy "cardio" workout and then a weight circuit. I am planning on heading in again today to do a real cardio workout (that means sweat) and see how I feel about weights after that. I figured if I did it before Miss I's gym class it would work out pretty good, my gym is just a few blocks from her class. But then I am all sweaty if someone actually does want to go out for lunch. See, there I go talking myself out of it again. :)